I Can't seem to beat this clock
Depression is a constant pounding
A knock, Knock, Knock
It's sounds when I'm feeling stressed
So basically I'm perpetually pressed
I'm Stuck between a hard place and solid rock
I'm lost in the ocean no place dock
I did what y'all told me
Dropped that anchor like it was the key
But the game's rigged: there ain't even a lock
I'm counting down to depression
Overwhelmed by what I've been suppressin
Guess I never learned my lesson
I'm Feeling dismissed,
Only touched by The scars on my wrists
I'm Sinking further into the abyss
My double consciousness ain't fixin this!
But I Can't let them see I'm drowning
Need to Fix my face
Gotta win this race
Gotta make my case
Gotta Stay straight lace
I'm falling behind
Going out my mind
There's no God damn time!
My head ain't
but my Tank is empty
My heart ain't,
But my words are empty...
Oh I see
Y'all ain't got no sympathy
Y'all ain't got no empathy
Indifference stings like a thousand bees
guess it's just me
Guess I'm crazy
Or is it
I'm just lazy
But Don't worry
Doc says he'll give me a chemical lobotomy
Prescribe a remedy
Before I stir up a frenzy
My Times up;
time to erase me.
Gotta be quick
Say something and make it stick
Let's take a deep dive inside my head
Haven't left my bed
For 2 weeks
Guess I'm too weak
Prognosis is looking bleak
Feel myself starting tweak
Guess I really did peak
Next time, I'll remake myself in your image
A better image
A brighter image
A whiter image
Trying to look for safety
I'll join your community
Seeking total anonymity
I'll get lost in the ambiguity
But This white mask aint hiding my black body
This fake smile ain't foolin nobody
So I fall flat
Guess that's that
They say it takes strength to accept the things I cannot change, I disagree
Sounds a whole lot like complacency
Submitting to some Colonial supremacy
One way ticket straight to mundanity.
I'm done with Serenity
Broken prayers don't mend this kind of Melancholy
The pills provide a temporary solution
how can I explain? I'm not high...
I'm actually feeling pretty low.
The Meds mess with my flow
Tried praying y'know you never know...
I tried crying but these feelings just won't go
Your pity highlights my isolation
I don't need help, I need absolution
Can anyone relieve this hurt in me?
Instead I get your apathy
that Meaningless I'm sorry....
Your silence brings only condemnation
Is it entertaining? Did I win?
I didn't know I was up for consideration.
My ignominy is a special kind of humiliation
So unlike this depression,
I think I'll fade away... nothing more than an apparition.
No time left for deliberation
Nah you don't deserve a resolution...